Raw HOPE

Lord, my Lord, there aren't words enough to describe the depths of my pain. Seeing others so easily get the blessings that I've been praying and crying for, is a pain I wish I never had to understand. Lord, I feel it filling me with bitterness and anger - a coldness in my center, a rage in my belly. I quickly begin fighting the spiral of shame, blame, and darkness that so often accompanies a new announcement. Lord I pray You help me see the light. Help me find true j

I found out that a dear, dear friend of mine was pregnant mere weeks after my miscarriage. I was filled with such an odd rush of feelings that, even as a therapist, I didn't know was possible. I immediately felt so much joy for she and her husband, who I just knew were going to be great parents, and so much anguish for myself and the life I had so recently lost. And over the next 9 months, those feelings continued, sometimes one feeling stronger than the other, but often feel

I was sitting in church recently and our wonderful pastor said some of these words and they resonated with me in a way that had me thinking on them for days and weeks. As my own worst critic, I often see all my mess-ups and shortcomings, and I can begin to believe that it's exactly how the Lord sees me too. But hearing our pastor state so plainly the way that God looks upon me, was such a beautiful and defining moment for me and my faith. So here, if you are struggling to bel

Your fondness is evident in all the goodness that dots my life

Heavenly Father, help me. Help me surrender fully to your plans. I know I cannot begin to fathom what You have for me, but Lord, I am...

I'm thankful that You know right when I need it. Though I ask often, you know the moments when my soul is the most tired, and you give me what I need to keep going on this journey.

O Lord,  How I desire to be a mom. To feel little feet grow within me, to hear the red faced screams of a healthy baby, given life by...