When Everyone Else is Having Babies

Lord, my Lord,

there aren't words enough to describe the depths of my pain. Seeing others so easily get the blessings that I've been praying and crying for, is a pain I wish I never had to understand.

Lord, I feel it filling me with bitterness and anger - a coldness in my center, a rage in my belly. I quickly begin fighting the spiral of shame, blame, and darkness that so often accompanies a new announcement.

Lord I pray You help me see the light. Help me find true joy for the gifts that You give others, even when I am still waiting for my own. Lord this bitterness is so hard to carry, and tonight I lay it at your feet. Help me hold it, and allow me to balance out these feelings with ones of peace and delight.

Lord, tonight please fill me with your peace and understanding that my time will come. Help me remember that your plan is Good.

Amen